Please help me with this, what should I do? (I apologies it's so long)?

This sounds very familiar!! A very similar thing happened to me when I was about 13. If you�re somewhere around that age, I can tell you that it�s not real love, it�s a crush. Even though now it�s eating you up and at night you stay awake just thinking about him (am I right?) it will slowly pass and fade away. Is this boy gay? If not, you�ve got to think that he probably finds this embarrassing and hopes that if he ignores you, you�ll forget him. Although this seems like dumb advice, you�ll see in a few months when you look back that I was right. It�ll soon pass, good luck xx